My mother tells me that recently my writing has changed.
“What do you mean? How is it different?” I ask her
“Just the last few posts” she says, “They’re… safe.”
I have mixed feelings. The strongest is relief and joy that I have a mother who reads my blog (on parenting, no less) and engages with it to the point where she can pick that up and call me on it. I am well aware that this is a rare and wonderful thing. In that moment I feel seen in the best of ways.
It hasn’t always been this way. It has taken us many years and constant intention to get to this place but we are here and I am drop-to-my-knees grateful.
We are proof that it’s never too late to become a conscious parent and for your child to benefit from it.
I thank us both.
The second strongest feeling I had when she said it was indignation. Humph! Me? Safe? I keep challenging myself to be more honest – even if it means being SEEN by y’all – not necessarily in the best of ways.
The third strongest feeling was recognising truth.
I laughed, “It’s because I’ve been in transition. I’m not sure where I’m going with all this, or with what I want the blog to be.”
“But you’ve always written about your confusion before” she says to me in surprise. Thanks Imma.
So here it is.
This writing journey has led me to places I never expected. Deep dark places within myself and startling peaks. I thought the blog was just a way to build a platform to get my book published. I didn’t know a blog has its own life and spirit. Like my children it has shown me to myself over and over in ways that have humbled, thrilled and terrified me. And my book still hasn’t been published.
I have a deep faith in the book’s own journey. In Hebrew the term for publishing translates as, “to bring into the light”. Isn’t that lovely? So this book, like all of us, will come into the light when it’s good and ready. Like my children it has shown me that – and I have finally humbly (mostly) stopped pushing MY way onto it.
Now I’m left with a blog that’s alive. And I’m in love with it.
Life’s funny like that.
BUT it was conceived as a platform-building thing and that’s just not it’s only true purpose in the world – or so it tells me. It wants to be re-named and realigned with its truth – and no, I don’t know yet what that is.
So let’s get practical. The name right now is too long. When people want to visit the site they can’t remember it – and EilatAviram.com is no easier to remember!
So I want your ideas for a two or three word title that will shine with the spirit of this blog – and an explanatory sub-heading. I haven’t had an Aha! yet on my own and it’s always good to ask for help when you need it.
Sri Swami Venkatesananda writes, “We are all cells in the body of God”. When I read that IRead More