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Posted on 4 Apr, 2016 | 12 comments

Are You Ok With Who And Where You Are?

I am all astir. Riled up. In the midst of an inner uprising.

I feel furious and outraged. I was fantasising about sending out various letters to various people whose actions have raised my ire and then thankfully I said, “Hang on a minute. If I’m this affected it means something about this is mine. Let me pause before I make it about the outside and first look at what is happening inside.”

look inside

Isn’t it amazing how the outside constantly reflects our inside to us?

There were two (enraging) outside situations that made me aware of my inner situation. Did I mention they were really upsetting?

So firstly a group I love and have been involved in for two years was criticised for the way it has been run.  Now I am always open to constructive feedback – even things that are difficult to hear and raise my defences. It is true that I may fight it off initially but I will always come around to looking at myself honestly in the end. If the intention of the comment is to help me see something of which I am unaware, then I want to know it – especially if it is causing someone hurt. But when the feedback comes with someone else’s fear and anger – in other words judgement – then it is much more difficult to sift out the good stuff from the junk.

When we tell someone they are doing it ‘wrong’ in some way we better be damn sure we have their best interests at heart and that we have strained our own insecurities from the mix before we feed it to them. This, sadly, did not happen in our case. We were called in and told in no uncertain terms that our deep learning and growth process of the past two years was not good enough according to someone else’s version of How Things Should Be.

Did I mention this was really upsetting?

It’s quite something to judge another person’s healing and growth process. I suppose it might reflect fear and a real lack of self-compassion for one’s own growth and healing process that is then projected onto others… Ok deep breath. Stop analysing your mirrors and turn inwards.

The second thing that got me going was someone saying something which reflected the depths of their judgement of another group of people. There was no ill-intent or malice in their words but I felt righteous anger and judged them for their judgement. I fantasised about writing them a letter to tell them how ‘wrong’ it is for them to see things that way.

Hello? Pot? Kettle?

So in the midst of fantasising about writing letters of indignant rage to set all these people straight and tell them how it should actually go (according to me), I realised I was all riled up and asked myself, “What is this about?”

It is about judgement. I am angry at the unjust judgement of people for being where they are and not somewhere else. I am angry that people are being judged for doing something one way and not another ‘better’ way.

So I had to ask myself why I am SO upset about it. “Do I unjustly judge myself and shame myself for being who and where I am instead of something I think would be better?”

Well THAT’S a no-brainer!

So the good news is that apparently I have had enough of that sort of treatment from myself. I know this because when I see it in others I want to scream at them how wrong it is to do that.

But let me not judge myself for feeling this way or for being who and where I am.

No-one, not even I, get to judge or shame myself for how I do my growth and healing process.  People heal and grow at their own rate and in their own style. Insight and feedback from others who can see our blind spots is immeasurably helpful – but shaming is not.

We are where we are and we are who we are and that is just fine. It is perfect for us. It doesn’t get to be judged by anyone. If they are judging it is about them, not about you. If I judge myself for something it simply reflects I have fear in the area I’m judging, not that I am not ok as me.

Nobody learns through fear and shame. If you want to help someone, love them for who and where they are – and THEN help and support them to see what they need to see.

This applies to yourself and your children and everyone in the world.

Repeat after me, “I am fine just as I am.”

Oh PLEASE pass this on. That way at least I have sent this message out in some helpful way instead of my original Angry Letter Idea. So many of us need to hear this.

12 Comments

  1. Oh Eilat, Sooo Soooo Spot On! Now I GET IT!

    *that mindblowing exploding hand gesture near head*

    I experienced a brilliant light bulb moment when that exact same penny dropped for me just now reading this article. So THAT is why I judge others for judging others so unjustly… far out! Now it makes sense!

    Thank you for sharing so much of you with us!

    • Hee hee. Are you now officially enlightened?
      Thank you Maria for sharing too. It means a lot that you are also looking inward and growing and healing alongside me. We are just fine as we are – and so is everyone else!! Challenging concepts to be exploring.

  2. I could absolutely relate to this. I had a yoga mentor once tell me that it’s hard to come back from having a “spiritual ego”. You feel enlightened. You can’t help but share it with other people at first. It’s inevitable, but you’ll find yourself realizing that you are coming on too strong – as I did.

    This is a slippery subject. You described it well. Thank you!

    • Rachel thank you for taking it to a heart-based place. It is true that we try to ‘help’ others by telling them to do what worked for us. Soul-Ego indeed 🙂

  3. So beautiful, gives me strength

    • Yaaay!! Thanks for telling me that.

  4. Hi Elly,

    Nice one. Nice advice. Stop. Think. Then react.

    Gis

    • Ah, yes. Succinct summary. I think I may have to write that down 🙂

  5. Hi Eilat

    As always, beautifully said! Thank you for taking the action to love you more where you are. After all, as you are you are enough, you have enough and you do enough.

    Thank you Beautiful Woman for all that you teach us.

    Lots of love
    Tish

    • Tish I send you a hug! Thank you for your lovely encouragement.

  6. Thank you for today’s post it has helped me so much today.
    I will pass it on

    • I am so glad it did that for you. It makes my heart smile to know my rant was more usefully directed to remind us all how we are just fine. Yes please pass on that message.

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